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It delights me to know that what I’m writing is not a piece of shit. My friend bhern asked me about Aniel whether he existed or not. My answer? I told her Aniel exists. Didn’t gave her enough information though.

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I have this white ONE band on my template. This is an organization whose aim is to make poverty a history. I like their objectives so I joined and got this cool white band for my site. Cool huh?!?

ADNOC Tournament

I went to johns inter-company Adnoc tournament last night. It was his second game this season. Last nights game was quite exciting. I was the only lady on the bench together with other Arab men. I believe they were the heads of the company because they told the office boy to give me fresh orange juice…oh how sweet of them. At first, they were just mentioning the word Philippines and Filipino. I assumed they were talking about john and the other Filipino guy of the other team since there were only three Filipino players in the game and john being the only pinoy in their team. He led the team. It was a one man show. Johns other team mates are just there to complete the line up. He did the rebounds, the shooting and all. John had 3 consecutive 3 pts and I believe the arab men cannot help but feel sorry for john since he does everything to win the team. This arab man finally said, “excuse me, is he your husband?” then I said with a conservative smile “yes”. [Think I’ll better write our conversation in a narrative form not to exaggerate but to be precise of the flow of our conversation]

Arab man: excuse me is he your husband?
Proud me: yes
Arab man: he plays good
Proud me: just smiled not wanting to blush
Other arab man in a business suit: he plays good but he is alone
Arab man: Is he from Das?
Proud me: No. he is in the main office
Other arab man: what department ma’am?
Proud me: IT
Other arab man: what does he do?
Proud me: he’s with telecoms
Arab man: with naji? (sorry of the spelling)
Proud me: yes with naji
Arab man in a business suit: I saw him in the office. He is good
Arab man & other arab man: talking in Arabic
Arab man in a business suit: I also saw him play last year. He was good
Proud me: just smiled. I can help but be flattered.
Our conversation was stopped when john was on fire with making more points. In the end, johns team lost with just 4 points! I didn’t felt sorry for john. I felt proud. It made me proud the way he played the game. It made me proud hearing other people say good things about him be it as a player or as a person. I am very proud of him.

proud me,

brAt

My last post was about a dream. Funny thing though, I was in a plain writing mode htad day and some of the words or should I say the thought of the poem was just forced from within. Writing that poem didn’t really mean something special…. Not until the day came when I remembered this very special friend named Aniel.

I was reading some excerpts about the Gospel of Judas. I came across Ezekiel and I suddenly remembered a long time friend named Aniel. I met him in this special place so quite and everything was calm. I was praying for a friend. A friend that will be with me throughout. Then I met him. He was so young and neat and clean. The feeling I felt when I met him was indescribable. I cannot remember if I cried or not when I saw him. I only remember the feeling of security having met this very special friend.

Unfortunately though , I only met Aniel once. Maybe because I am not in a state of being as I was before when I met him, or maybe I am pretty much preoccupied with other things or maybe because I am in denial of accepting realities…

Now I understand why I came up with such poem…. It is for Aniel, a long time friend.. I believe this is his way of saying his friendship still exist…

I read the poem again. And Oh my.!!! The poem is really about Aniel… I will be keeping you forever, Aniel….

Keeping you,




brAt

I am disheartened by the turn of events these past few days. My previous anxiety suddenly turned into grief.

If only my hands can express what my heart feels….

Seven years in Tibet

This is a story of a man who wanted challenges; a climber whose dream is to conquer the Himalayas.

It talks about personal strength, friendships and relationships.

Through the story, I’ve learned about the Dalai Lama and the reason why he is now in India.

Pulitzer

Awhile ago, john forwarded pictures from the Pulitzer awards and reminded me of how lucky I am. The pictures were so depressing that I can’t help but be dismayed of how things turned out for them. These young children should be at school! Learning new things, playing and all the kiddie stuff we did when we were young.

Thank you very much Lord for giving me this blessed life.

I am not in the writing mode at the moment. A lot of things are bombarding my head. Oh how I wish I am on my student-life-years. Alas! I better write about it!!

Playing with words!

One cold rainy day
When all you gotta hope is pray
Pray that the rain will stop
And meet with your friends on the floors a top.

The day of the exams are coming
Your days to finish the year is speeding
Hopeless you are feeling
As the end is approaching.

There are these days when
Lying on your bed you wished
Longing for the year to end
Goodbye to your notes and books you kissed.

Oh how good it feels
To reminisce the things you’ve done
No other word matches this
And all the rhymes I cannot find.

A mess is what I am today
Reading this, you’ll discover an array
Of all the angst I have to this day.

Stop writing is what I should do
But wait, im starting to express
Complex feelings thats been suppressed
Feelings that were kept for a long time or so

I am already playing with words
I maybe one of those nerds
At your backyard you make fun of
I’ll better stop and cut this off



Until then,
Hasta mañana!



brAt

Anxiety sinks in again after knowing that the results of my bros licensure exam will be released this week! God I just hope he is on the list! Best if he is on the topnotch! Oh well I guess I’ll have to be patient and pray for the best! Whatever the result will be, all praises will still be to the Almighty.

War of the Worlds

Watched War of the Worlds last night and it was a nice movie. There are some flaws though, but over all, it will fasten you to the story. After the movie, I can’t help but wonder if there are any possibilities that the story would come true? How knows? I mean, there are some things that man is not capable of knowing and will never know the reason behind. Come to think of it, we are destined to something, whatever it is we will surely find out in the near future. On the other hand, everybody is special and unique. If something will use our uniqueness for their survival, then that something like the aliens in the movie will never succeed! They are doomed to die.

Bin Laden, a Billionaire

No wonder why Bin Laden is powerful and he had resources. He is a son of a Multibillionaire! I hope I’ll learn more about this fearsome man.

Till my next post.

Apprehensive me,

brAt

I watched a super boring old movie last night. It was about the Rembrandt I don’t even know the title. Funny thing is, I kept telling myself that the movie is boring and at the same time, I cannot change the channel. I was already into the movie when john said that what I’m watching is boring and that we have to change the channel. At that time, the movie was almost over so we agreed to just finish it. Funny how, we found ourselves glued to the story line and even laugh at some scene. I am really a movie buff.

I have been very anxious about my bros board exam. He is a smart guy no doubt about it but being smart is not the basis of passing the exams, it is about dedication, hard work and focus. I hope he did everything to pass his exams. I’ve talked to john who once was taking the same board exam and he said my bro will pass. I am not being bias or anything but I believe in kanot --- I believe in his capacity to pass.

I did not have enough sleep last night my little one was not in the mood to sleep well. Maybe he is already having nightmares. He is crying with his eyes closed. Is this a sign of having nightmares? Or he is just not feeling well?

Im gonna buy a loptop…. NOT!

The Oprah show I’ve watched last night was an eye-opener for me as a mother and so to for the world. This world has been technologically equipped and the fruits are coming to hunt us! It already backed fired! This is so shocking and I don’t want this to happen to my kids and to any other kids.

The story began when this young boy had a new web cam. He met friends on the net and after a while, these friends offered him money in exchange for doing things like taking off his shirt, then his pants and all the other things. The sad thing is, his so called friends lured him with so much money and the boy didn’t think of any harassment at that time… he even thought is was cool earning big bucks! Taking his shirt of in front of the cam was no big deal to him. He started doing this when he was 13!! Can you imagine what goes inside the mind of a 13 year old boy? I mean, these pedophiles really know how to manipulate kids!!!

In the long run, the young boy was hooked to drugs and was having xes with other girls just to earn money!

My point is this – the young generation is so equipped with the technology today and we will never know what new things there is in store for them in the net. There are softwares available in the market that disables internet connection to these porn sites. However, these young people especially if exposed to on the net can always find ways on how to operate and manage their way towards these sites.

Conclusion: With the fast growth of technology today, we better be prepared for the coming of our worst nightmares. You see, eventually, this world wont be as safe as it was. All the things are coming so fast that we are not aware its already here!

This really scares me. I’m already having second thoughts on purchasing a laptop.

Petrified me,

BrAT

Here I am again! I have decided to modify this blog which would be reader-friendly. I deleted MOST of my posts after knowing that a friend is starting a blog I decided to make a link of her blog to this. Hey don’t get me wrong but there are things in this world that should be kept private and my previous posts are one of them.

I’ll just describe my previous post. I think it is right for me to say this and who else will…

Months back, this blog was all about me and and the philosophies that I keep for myself for self gratification!!! Hahaha! It was made out of the strong emotions I have towards things. The philosophies I have and the thoughts (prohibited and the like thoughts for that matter) that need to be expressed.

My intended purpose is for me to track down by growth as an individual --- that is if theres growth happening! My intended reader is myself. Maybe that is the Main reason why I deleted my previous posts I’ve used vulgar words that may offend readers from all ages.

Now this blog is still about myself and my beliefs and philosophies but, this time, I’ll write things that will make sense. This is not a promise, and I know making this blog offers nothing so I guess, reading this blog guarantees nothing to my readers. This is a personal thing.

I presume you have noticed conflicting views already. This is me. Bare with me. if you cant bare with the very complex views I have then don’t read this blog.

So I guess I’ve said enough and without further ado, I welcome you all to my blog! Enjoy your stay…

Stay long.
Stay till dawn.
Stay forever!

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